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Saturday, 24 September 2011 ♔ 05:56

Mammy , Don't you love me any more?

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这是关于一个未满十个月的小宝宝想要跟妈妈说的话

Hi, Mommy.

...I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old.

You're going to find out about me soon,

though, I promise.

Let me tell you some things about me.

My name is John, and

I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair.

Well, I don't have it yet, but I

will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me

your one and only.

I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly,

but wehave each other.

We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to

be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today,

Mommy! You were so excited,

you couldn'twait to tell everyone.

All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect.

You have a beautiful smile, Mommy.

It will be the first face I

will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life.

Iknow it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy.

You were so excited to tell him aboutme! ...

He wasn't happy,

Mommy. He kind of got angry.

I don't think that you noticed, but he did.

He started to talk about something called

wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet.

You were still happy,

though, so it was okay. Then he did

something scary,

Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward,

and your hands flying up to protect me.

I was okay... but I was very sad

for you. You were crying then,

Mommy.

That's a sound I don't like. It

doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too.

He said sorry after,

and he hugged you again.

You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I

do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I

don't like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me!

Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and

you're so proud of me!

You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes,

and you were so so so happy.

You sing to me, too. You have the most

beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest.

And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe.

You just wait

and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will

make you proud,

and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy.

I do it because you put your

hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too.

I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today,

Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny

and he wasn't talking right.

He said he didn't want you. I don't know why,

but that's what he said.

And he hit you again. I got angry,

Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt!

I promise to protect you.

Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good

person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want

us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?

You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy.

Is everything okay?

It's been three days since you saw Daddy.

You haven't talked to me or

touched me or anything since that.

Don't you still love me,

Mommy?

I still love you.

I think you feel sad.

The only time I feel you is when

you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side.

And you hug me with your arms,

and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do

that when you're awake, any more?

I'm 21 weeks old today,

Mommy. Aren't you proud of me?

We're going somewhere today,

and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too.

I want to be a doctor when I grow up,

Mommy. Did I tell you that?

I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.

...Mommy, I'm getting scared.

Your heart is still beating,

but I don't know what you are thinking.

The doctor is talking to you.

I think

something's going to happen soon.

I'm really, really, really scared,

Mommy. Please tell me you love me.

Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!?

It hurts! !!!

Please make them stop!

It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! !

Make them stop!

Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe.

I'm in heaven with the angels now. They

told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.

Why, Mommy?

Why did you do it?

Don't you love me any more?

Why did you get rid of me?

I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong,

Mommy. I love you,

Mommy! I love you

with all of my heart.

Why

don't you love me?

What did I do to deserve what they did to me?

I want to live, Mommy!

Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me,

and not talk to me.

Didn't I love you enough?

Please say you'll keep me,

Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds

and see your face and grow up and be a doctor.

I don't want to be here, I

want you to love me again!

I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong.

I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.

Two more eyes that will never see.

Two more hands that will never touch.

Two more legs that will never run.

One more mouth that will never speak....